So here is the story, and it's kind of long.
First off, I work for the Center for
Academic Program Support (CAPS) here on campus and on Wednesday October 16th I
was manning their table at the Celebration of Student Writers (CSW) in the SUB
ballrooms. It was a pretty cool event, with talks and booths and presentations
from classes. I was only working from 10-12, so I knew I would miss a lot of it
because most of the events were after 12, but I didn't mind.
Anyways, towards the end of my shift
around 11:30, one of the guys who I was pretty sure set up the event comes over
with another gentleman. The gentleman asks me questions about CAPS and I was
surprised to find myself in a deep conversation about the effect of CAPS on
campus and how CAPS has one of the top writing centers in the nation and how we
are on the cutting edge with our technology and that I personally was currently
involved in building some of our online tutoring pedagogy.
It was the most I had talked the entire time I was sitting at that
table. Everyone else (mostly students required to go) would have a 10 second
conversation with me so they could have one of the cool pens we were giving
out. Anyways, the gentleman asked for my name, I gave it; he thanked me, shook
my hand and walked away. I realized that I hadn't asked his name and I
felt like I might have been rude, but I figured eh, it was no big deal.
My shift ended at 12 and I decide to walk around and visit all the
cool booths. I also knew there was an author talk happening at 12:15 that I thought
I could get credit for with this class. Around 12:10 someone announces they
will begin the talk shortly and I take a seat in the front row. I notice a few
people talking off stage, the coordinators I presumed. Then I see the man who I
had that conversation with and I assumed he was also one of the people “running
the show” which confused me a bit because the questions he asked me seemed to
imply he was not from UNM or even Albuquerque. Again, I brush it off.
A few minutes later a man takes the mic on stage and introduces
David Shipler, the author of The Working
Poor, which was the Freshman Learning experience book (a book all the
freshman in entry level English or university studies classes had to read). They,
of course, mention that he is a Pulitzer Prize winner, which I was impressed
by, and that he has numerous other books. Then the author comes on to stage…and
it was the man who I had the CAPS conversation with.
I could feel my checks immediately turn red from embarrassment. Did
I seriously just meet a famous Author/Pulitzer Prize winner and not even ask
his name at the end of our conversation. I was mortified. At the same time, I was
proud that I knew enough about caps to give it a good word in front of this
man.
Despite wanting to run out of there, I stayed for the whole hour
long talk. There weren’t many people actually actively listening to the talk,
there was a lot going on at the booths etc. so it was hard to hear, even from the
front row, which made it even harder for me to sit there because he looked me
in the eyes multiple times during his talk. I learned a lot and found out this
man was really interesting.
His main premise was that we do not have a poverty problem; that poverty
is a result of underlying, more significant problems in America. He talked about
the ways of measuring poverty, and how wrong we are to use income, since it is
just a snapshot, whereas debt is a moving photo. He also said poverty is psychological
and relative.
He also went into the fact that poverty leads to malnutrition,
which leads to poor brain development in children, which can lead to high cases
of misbehavior and high dropout rates, which then leads to poverty. It is a
vicious circle.
One of the last things he talked about was the internal problems
that can cause and be caused by poverty. Self-loathing and low self-esteem
leads to people not trying to get jobs or not holding them because they don’t
feel important. He told a story of a friend who owned a business and had to
hire people and his frustrations at people who didn’t show up. He told his
friend that, often times, people don’t show up because they feel like they are
not important and no one will even notice that they are gone.
This struck a chord in me. I have had a job at the same place for
5+ years now (not CAPS, somewhere else I won’t mention). Despite my hard work, I
earn minimum wage have not received a raise (other than mandatory minimum wage
increases) the entire time I have worked there. I have worked their longer than
most of my managers. I have been told many times how great I am doing and I am
certain I could do the job of any of my managers, but because I can’t work full
time, I can’t take the position. This past year I got a job at CAPS (higher paid
and WAY more fulfilling) and I cut my hours at this other job. I was going to
just quit, but my boss asked me not to, so I didn’t. So I worked there about 10
hours a week. They started cutting my responsibilities and training others on
things that only I could do. I used to be valuable and special, but I felt
worthless all of the sudden. So I started calling in all the time. I almost
never worked there if I could find an excuse, I wouldn’t go in. finally my boss
sat me down and threated to let me go if I didn’t change. This was about a month
ago. I have stopped calling in, but I informed him I would be leaving at the
end of the semester.
It wasn’t until I heard this author talk about this problem with
feeling useless, that I realized that was why I had begun to call in. I realized
that my boss was really the problem and not me. I ended up talking to my boss Friday
and he was finally able to see where I was coming from. He said he would try to
tell everyone they were more important more often. Although it was not enough
to make me stay another semester, I was glad to hear that maybe future employees
won’t go through what I did.
Anyways, this guy really got in my head and I ended up buying his
book, The Working Poor, right after
his talk and having him sign it and I talked to him some more. He was a cool
dude! I can’t wait to read the book.
(Sorry this was so long, it was just a cool story and I was really
touched by his ideas and philosophy about poverty and education in America)
You're an awesome story teller, Melissa! This was an interesting read. I read your entire story and was interested the whole time. It was great! I'm glad you got something out of this guy's talk. :)
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